STEPHANIEEEE

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Robin Williams | 1951-2014
we ain’t never had a friend like him.

(Source: doctorfaciliers)

(Source: cracksinteeth)

I’m seriously going to lose my fucking mind

If I stay here for grad school. Before, I didn’t mind as much because I thought I’d have someone, but now that I’m alone, I cannot stay here. I need to go someplace else and start over new.

I look at people I graduated from high school with and they’re doing so much better than me, it’s not even funny. Going to places like Duke, Vanderbilt, NYU, etc. I know that I’m lazy but am I really this dumb?

If only I was smart. If only I was attractive. If only I wasn’t boring. If only someone actually loved me.

And in the blink of an eye

I am completely alone. I haven’t felt this alone in years……

(Source: mangomali)

It’s funny as fuck how

I honestly thought that people really gave a shit about me. Hah, what a joke. This is exactly the reason why I’m a bitch; it’s because people always abandon me no matter what I do or how much I try to change. It’s absolutely disgusting how I thought I had found “the one” and I thought I was going to grow old with this person. Next time someone tries to get me to date someone, I WILL keep my promise and say no. What an idiot I was to say yes. I don’t care what anyone tries to tell me about how I just haven’t found “the one” yet…..I will never find “the one” because I don’t care enough to find him. It’s all a waste of time and energy. This whole love thing is fake.

What will I do now? I really don’t know. I hope to god that I get a really good scholarship to a good out of state school so I can start new over there. I will go away and never return. I will never again see or speak to anyone I’ve ever know here.

But if I don’t get a good scholarship and I’m stuck here, then…….I have no choice but to do what I gotta do.