February 2012
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I'm probably overreacting, but
Failing that anatomy midterm seriously makes me feel like my life is over.
Unless theres a huge curve (which I really really hope there is one), my overall grade will probably end up being a C since the TA will continue to be unpredictable with the final exam, and I get kicked out of the program for even having a B-.
^ if that happens…then I wasted a lot of time and money. But even worse,...
Soooo, my anatomy TA is a fucking cunt
and lied to us about whats going to be on the midterm.
So I just got a 56, and…
Thank fucking god I’m going out this weekend, because if I was staying home, I’d probably cut my throat.
I dont care, its just a midterm thats worth almost half of my grade
I dont care, its just a midterm thats worth almost half of my grade
I dont care, its just a midterm thats worth almost half...
Well, I think I slept for like three hours...
Jamba Juice, as much as I like you, I dont think that today is the best day for a 7 hour shift.
Please don't ever remind me that I said something...
I can’t believe I was so stupid and naive…seriously, what the fuck? I seriously thought that, just because our parents are still married? Someone should just punch me in the face for being so naive.
I’m so mad thinking about it. I’m so mad that people have this stupid belief that you’ll be happy as long as you have someone. I’m so mad that I can’t...
I have a huge fucking problem...fuck fuck fuck...
I dont want to give anyone a chance because I feel like they dont deserve one.
Or maybe its because I feel like I dont deserve one.
Or maybe its both.
Or maybe its simply the fact that…I want a different person.
Fucking kill me, I dont want to talk about this with my psychologist, or anyone, really.
Why am I so stupid and pathetic?
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Hopefully this is a sign that I'm getting a little...
During the past two years, I’ve rarely watched any movies. It was just weird for me, because I used to love watching movies all the time. I could sit down and watch four movies in a row, and not get bored at all. Recently, I’ve started watching movies again, and…it feels good. It really does, in some strange way that I cannot explain. I’m also thinking about riding horses...
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Had three interesting dreams last night.
Dream One: I was in a hot air balloon, and I was flying over hills, forests, mountains, oceans, etc…the scenery was spectacular, better than anything I’ve ever seen before. The scenery was better than Avatar and The Lord of the Rings, hahah.
To see or dream that you are in a hot air balloon suggests that it is time to overcome your depression.
^ accurate as fuck.
Dream Two: I...
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I doubt that anyone has really noticed, but
Before, I would write really long Tumblr posts…usually about how mad or disappointed I was about something. My posts would be about the past, present, and future…I havent been happy with either the past or present, really, and I’m worried about the future, just like the rest of us probably are.
But now, my posts are usually pretty short, and I probably dont sound as mad or hurt...
We've all gotten so old...time has gone by so...
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Some women choose to chase after men, while others...
Prozac has helped a little...I guess thats a step....
I havent cried myself to sleep for the past week or so, and I dont feel like I’m dying anymore.
Although I feel a little bit better, I still dont feel exactly happy, yet.
Basically, I’ve gone from feeling miserable to calm.
I just feel empty. Thats the only bad feeling, really.
Small steps at a time, right…?
I'll be living at the library this weekend.
Anatomy mid term is next Thursday…not too worried about it.
Behavior Modification test is on Monday…a little worried about it. I want to do better than last time (got an 85 on the first test).
Intro to American Studies test is also on Monday…pretty worried about it. I havent been to class at all (which is my bad), but seriously, its a fucking humanities class, and I never had...
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56% budget cut? Talk about being unfair.
I think its really unfair that USF might get a 56% budget cut, seeing as other universities in Florida are getting smaller budget cuts. It just doesnt make sense to me, seeing as USF is one of the biggest colleges in Florida, I dont know. It may not be the best (unless we’re talking about computer engineering and health), but it serves as a big part of the Tampa economy, especially when it...
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Just had one of those days where you finally begin...
Today has probably been one of the most important days of my life. I’m finally starting to put the puzzle pieces together….I mean, I’ve always had an idea about why I’m so fucked up, but now, everything is becoming so clear: my assumptions were right. All of my problems stem from my childhood.
This morning, I went to counseling, and I can honestly say that I like my new...
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I used to know what I want. But not anymore.
I dont know if choosing psychology as my minor was a good idea…for some reason, I feel like I should have chosen to get a public health minor, but I still dont completely understand what public health is, exactly. But its too late now, so I have to stick with the decision I have made.
I dont know what kind of nursing I want to do. I know that I have like two years before I really have to...
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Anonymous asked: You really need more confidence in yourself. I don't know you, but I do know you are undoubtedly smart, and that alone is something to be very proud of. If someone hasn't recognized you for how great you are, they are missing out. There is only one you, and once you you do love yourself, finding someone who does too will come naturally!
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Anonymous asked: Hmmm, well...have you ever been close to a guy before? Dated?
Anonymous asked: I don't think that means you are asexual. I am a girl too and I find women more beautiful and interesting to look at too, but could never be intimate with a woman. You're young, and it's perfectly normal to feel that way. It could just be that you haven't met the right guy that you can connect with, talk to and trust, just like your girlfriends but also have the romance there...
I should really label myself as being asexual.
I’ve always been a little confused about my sexuality.
My eyes tend to look at girls more, because to me, a hot girl is better looking than a hot guy.
As a matter of fact, I dont really check out guys too often.
But at the same time, I wouldnt want to be in a relationship with a girl.
Oh, but also, I dont talk to guys. I dont have anything to talk about with them. They all seem the same...
Although there are multiple meanings, I now have a...
My promise to myself is just as permanent as my reminder.
……..Never again.
Never. Again.