March 2012
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I have never felt so attracted to a guy before.
The chemistry tutoring center in the library= where I’ll find my husband.
Chemical or Computer Engineering major? Hot as fuck.
Nerdy and smart? Also hot as fuck.
You’re white? I like you even more.
Quiet, shy, and adorable? Yeahhhh, I’m happy.
February 2012
113 posts
Talking to my wifey always makes me feel better
The only thing standing between me and sanity is my chemistry test on Thursday, the 5 page Humanities paper that is due next Monday, Behavior Modification test next Wednesday, Anatomy test next Thursday, and getting at least a B in anatomy lab.
The only thing standing between me and this chemistry test is the math portion…
I have spent four hours daily at the library for the past two...
Anonymous asked: alright so, you failed. big deal. don't complain, go do something about it. change it. just because you failed one class bla bla bla, doesn't mean you're life is over. don't be over dramatic. think optimistically. you're gunna be fine kid.
Anonymous asked: Don't be too hard on yourself <3 I used to be super stressed out too but it was killing me. I took a step back & said "FUCK IT". I will mess up but I can't kick myself every time. School is a serious thing but it's best to lighten up about it every now & then. It will get better once you realize how to balance everything & what's really important :)
Anonymous asked: i know you're stressed out, i completely understand. but let me tell you something, and this is going to sound like complete and utter bullshit, but things are going to be okay. i promise. get your mind off that D. everyone fails something in their life. everyone scores something. it'll be okay.
And once again, everything is about to go down the...
I cant fucking deal with the stress of school right now…I need a fucking break, this is too much. My anatomy lab midterm may not get a curve now, because some fucking genius princesses got A’s, and now, my overall grade in the class is a D. A fucking D. With no curve, there is no way in hell I’d be able to bring it up to a B. Even if there was a curve, the chance of raising my...
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Maybe I'm not as ready as I thought I was...
Well, I have my psychologist appointment in two days, with the lady that actually seems to understand a little bit more than the others.
But fuck, I dont think I’m ready to talk about certain things…
Then again, I’ll never be ready. So it has to be done asap.
But I cant even fucking talk about this with my friends, hardly…
:((((((
goddddddd I dont want to talk about...
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I need a summer job...I guess I should start...
Too bad Jamba Juice isnt open during the summer :/ and I hate how theres only like five of them in Florida (the others are really far away). Its weird, because you would think that smoothies would be extremely popular in Florida. Jamba Juice is like McDonald’s in California, but not over here :((( oh well, I’ll just look for a job somewhere else. Hopefully I’ll like the job a...
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...I lied. I dont get sad when I see them. I get...
I'm probably overreacting, but
Failing that anatomy midterm seriously makes me feel like my life is over.
Unless theres a huge curve (which I really really hope there is one), my overall grade will probably end up being a C since the TA will continue to be unpredictable with the final exam, and I get kicked out of the program for even having a B-.
^ if that happens…then I wasted a lot of time and money. But even worse,...
Soooo, my anatomy TA is a fucking cunt
and lied to us about whats going to be on the midterm.
So I just got a 56, and…
Thank fucking god I’m going out this weekend, because if I was staying home, I’d probably cut my throat.
I dont care, its just a midterm thats worth almost half of my grade
I dont care, its just a midterm thats worth almost half of my grade
I dont care, its just a midterm thats worth almost half...
Well, I think I slept for like three hours...
Jamba Juice, as much as I like you, I dont think that today is the best day for a 7 hour shift.
Please don't ever remind me that I said something...
I can’t believe I was so stupid and naive…seriously, what the fuck? I seriously thought that, just because our parents are still married? Someone should just punch me in the face for being so naive.
I’m so mad thinking about it. I’m so mad that people have this stupid belief that you’ll be happy as long as you have someone. I’m so mad that I can’t...
I have a huge fucking problem...fuck fuck fuck...
I dont want to give anyone a chance because I feel like they dont deserve one.
Or maybe its because I feel like I dont deserve one.
Or maybe its both.
Or maybe its simply the fact that…I want a different person.
Fucking kill me, I dont want to talk about this with my psychologist, or anyone, really.
Why am I so stupid and pathetic?
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Hopefully this is a sign that I'm getting a little...
During the past two years, I’ve rarely watched any movies. It was just weird for me, because I used to love watching movies all the time. I could sit down and watch four movies in a row, and not get bored at all. Recently, I’ve started watching movies again, and…it feels good. It really does, in some strange way that I cannot explain. I’m also thinking about riding horses...
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Had three interesting dreams last night.
Dream One: I was in a hot air balloon, and I was flying over hills, forests, mountains, oceans, etc…the scenery was spectacular, better than anything I’ve ever seen before. The scenery was better than Avatar and The Lord of the Rings, hahah.
To see or dream that you are in a hot air balloon suggests that it is time to overcome your depression.
^ accurate as fuck.
Dream Two: I...
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I doubt that anyone has really noticed, but
Before, I would write really long Tumblr posts…usually about how mad or disappointed I was about something. My posts would be about the past, present, and future…I havent been happy with either the past or present, really, and I’m worried about the future, just like the rest of us probably are.
But now, my posts are usually pretty short, and I probably dont sound as mad or hurt...
We've all gotten so old...time has gone by so...
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Some women choose to chase after men, while others...
Prozac has helped a little...I guess thats a step....
I havent cried myself to sleep for the past week or so, and I dont feel like I’m dying anymore.
Although I feel a little bit better, I still dont feel exactly happy, yet.
Basically, I’ve gone from feeling miserable to calm.
I just feel empty. Thats the only bad feeling, really.
Small steps at a time, right…?
