I dont know if choosing psychology as my minor was a good idea…for some reason, I feel like I should have chosen to get a public health minor, but I still dont completely understand what public health is, exactly. But its too late now, so I have to stick with the decision I have made.

I dont know what kind of nursing I want to do. I know that I have like two years before I really have to decide, but it worries me that I dont know. Usually, I always know what I want, way before it even happens…but not with this. And this is going to be one of the most important decisions I’ll ever have to make, so I have to make the right one.

I dont even know if nursing is the right major for me. I really dont know how to help people, because I’m usually the one who needs help, seeing as I’m kind of stupid and clueless when it comes to making smart decisions.

I find mental health and drugs to be interesting but…I’m a hypocrite. I’m mentally ill myself, and I cant even help myself properly, or at all, really. I cant tell people things like, “Time heals all wounds, so just remember that things always get better”, and, “You have a place in this world, you are important”, because…I know what goes through their mind when they hear stuff like that. “How would you know? I’m just not that important”, and, “Time doesnt heal anything.” I think the same exact thoughts.

I dont know what I want to do with my life. I knew exactly what I wanted before, but not anymore.